SEPT. 21 2014
Walang kuryente for almost two days. I almost died hahaha :D But someone particular made these days bearable and happy.. Sobrang bait niya na pumayag siyang makicharge ako ng hatinggabi sa kanila. Who would do that to someone you just met a month ago?
Kaya siguro nagustuhan ko siya..
Cause the first time I met him, there’s a weird feeling, like, “Hey, this could be something..” I know it’s weird, pero I have this gut feeling na maybe he can be a part of my life. I saw something in him that made him shine throughout the other guys that I’ve met. Gusto ko siyang kilalanin at sana bigyan niya ako ng chance para doon.
Please bigyan mo ako ng chance para kilalanin ka.
People will claim to miss you and yet they don’t even make an effort to text, call or see you.
SEPT. 18 2014
Ilang beses kong paulit-ulit na sinasabing wala munang lovelife ngayong college. Para akong sirang plaka. Hindi ko naman masisisi yung sarili ko kung bakit takot na takot na akong pumasok ulit sa isang relationship.
But there’s something so different with him.
Don’t get me wrong, he’s not that quite handsome. In fact, he’s average. But there was so different in him that’s so interesting the first time that we talked. He’s so intelligent and that is a major turn on for me. There is something so cool about him. Ewan ko, siguro ako lang ang may feelings na ganito sa kanya.
Close siya sa blockmates ko and we constantly text, tweet and talk to other. Siguro nga halatang halata na yung pagkakilig ko kapag kausap ko siya. Nakakainis, college nako pero parang elem kung magkacrush. Bahala na si God kung saan to mapunta.
Kasi handa na ulit akong magmahal at masaktan. :)
Hindi siya ganun kagwapo pero may something sa kanya na naaattract ako.
AUG 22 2014
In another life, I would make you stay.
Letters for my body parts.
Dear Eyes, Sorry for making you cry. Sorry for the things you saw. Sorry for the painful moments that is visible to you. Sorry for some nights that I cannot let you close and rest. Sorry for over-using you during midnights.
Dear Mouth, Sorry for letting you smile when it is not really what you want to do. Sorry for making you say things which are not true. Sorry for using you to make other people see that I’m okay. Sorry for shutting you up when in times that I need to say something but I can’t.
Dear Heart, Sorry for being broken. Sorry for loving someone who is not worth it. Sorry for the damage that I’ve done. Sorry for not taking care of you. Sorry for all the pain. Sorry for the lost. Sorry for being miserable.
Dear Mind, Sorry for being so stupid. Sorry for being so careless. Sorry because I don’t listen to you. Thank you for the warnings and things to remember. You were right. I wished I listened to you.
- (via fuckyeahmeyn)
Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star? One without a permanent scar.. Did you missed me while you were looking for yourself out there?
AUGUST 22, 2014
"Cause when a heart breaks, no it don’t break even.."
Gabi-gabi kong pinapaalala sa sarili ko na napakarisky kung makikipagrelasyon ako ngayong college.
I admit it was a hard decision to choose to stay single. Siguro dahil takot na takot na ulit akong sumugal sa mga ganyang bagay. I can’t even imagine myself going through that same pain again. The truth is, parang nawalan nako ng enthusiasm sa idea ng love. Back then, kapag narinig ko ung salitang love or simply thinking about it, I get all excited and interested. Pero bakit ngayon, all I can think about upon hearing that word is that it’s very ridiculous, misleading and full of crap. It’s been a year since I wrote a good love story. That last one was not a good one even then. That last love story that I wrote tells about my heartbreak. Akala ko lilipas din yung time na wala na akong gana magsulat, but I was wrong. I can’t seem to find anymore the enthusiasm and interest to write a good love story. Nagyon kasi, an tingin ko nalang sa mga ganyan ay fiction. Yung tipong imposibleng mangyari. I’m so blinded by my past experiences that I can’t even let myself experience a new love.
Gabi-gabi kong pinapaalala sa sarili ko na hindi ito ang gusto kong ending ng story ko, rather ito yung post break kung saan kailangan ko munang mag-grow up bago pumasok sa isang serious relationship..
AUG 9 2014
Natatawa nalang ako nung nalaman ko na brokenhearted din yung isang freshie dito sa bahay. Well, napakacommon naman na kasi ng breakup lalo na kapag summer or graduation. Ang ironic lang pakinggan kasi imbes na magcelebrate kayo kasi naabot niyo ang graduation together eh mas lalong nagiging malabo yung communication niyo sa isa’t isa. Nung una sa akin, hindi ko mainindihan kung bakit kelangang graduation pa kami nagkalabuan ng past ko. Now I understand na may purpose pala. Alam siguro ni God na mas mahihirapan lang ako sa ganung sitwasyon lalo na at sa malayo ako magcocollege. Napakademanding kasi talaga ang magkaroon ng relationship. Kelangan yan ng continuous na effort para mapanatili yung sparks. In my case, sa isang GC na taong katulad ko, mapapabayaan ko talaga. Bilib nga ako sa mga LDR e. Pero as of now, ayoko talaga muna. HIndi ako ready at sabihin nalang naing nagkaroon na ako ng phobia sa pakikipagrelasyon.. :)
Aug 9 2014
Ako kasi yung taong kapag ayaw ko na yung tao sa unang impression, mahirap ko na siyang bigyan ng second chance. Hindi naman sa pagiging judgemental or what pero madali talaga akong maoffend sa mga taong walang respeto. Siguro nga tama sila, na dapat bigyan ko ng second chance yung tao to prove herself. Nag-aadjust palang siguro siya. I admit, i was too quick not to like her instantly and sound really unfair. Ako rin naman, I have those times na napakabitch ko sa mga tao. Well, I guess I learned my lesson for today..